Lack is not my identity.

While I am enjoying what I am learning from the infertility community out there – I am so much more knowledgeable about fertility and my body in general since I started this journey – one thing that bothers me is the common thread I see of making infertility one’s identity.  Wishing for what I DON’T have seems to be a waste of a very short life.  What I mean is – everyone who wants to have a baby will get one in one way or another.  So the idea of spending a precious second, minute, hour or day feeling bad about and longing for something in the future is a waste of the here and now, which is so rich and WHICH WE WILL NEVER EVER EXPERIENCE AGAIN. I was in yoga class the other day, and took a breath and then thought “that moment is gone.”  Deep, huh?

My cat has been sick and his recent diagnosis, because he is old, has really made me think about mortality and the preciousness of each and every day.  I feel so alive, alert and aware lately that everything around me seems new and interesting.  Forget about what’s missing from our lives.  Let’s enjoy all the great things we have, the present moment and all we are doing and baby will come when he or she is ready.  Meantime, I got a positive LH result today (day 21) and so we’ll spend the weekend doin’ it.  Now there’s something to cherish…

Love,

Phoebe

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